Off to the summer!

10 hours more, I'll be off to the summer day!



Wish me good luck!

Beh Songz!

KnS!
Long time never beh song like this..
That time really feel like banging my dear out to em.. Farker..

Why the heck I wanna receive such harassment?!
Why me?

I'm just, care-less about how you guys look on me,
care-less about small issue you guys done to me.
I just don't mind grabbing the rubbish out of nowhere, help yours everywhere.

But why, my rebate was such awful environment to me.
Why won't you guys try to refrain my pride?
You do have pride, why not me?

Made up my mind, I'll do what I said.

Beggin

Artist - Madcon

Name - Beggin



Lyric:

[Tshawe Baqwa:]

Oooooh-

Put your loving hand out, baby

I'm beggin



Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out baby

Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out darlin



Ridin high, when I was king

Played it hard and fast, cause I had everything

Walked away, won me then

But easy come and easy go

And it would end



[Yosef Wolde-Mariam]



[Tshawe Baqwa:]

Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out, baby

Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out darlin



[Yosef Wolde-Mariam:]

I need you, (yeeah) to understand

Tried so hard

To be your man

The kind of man you want in the end

Only then can I begin to live again



[Tshawe Baqwa:]

An empty shell

I used to be

Shadow of my life

Was hangin over me



A broken man

Without a throne

Won't even stand the devils dance

To win my soul



[Yosef Wolde-Mariam]



[Tshawe Baqwa:]

Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out, baby

Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out darlin



[Yosef Wolde-Mariam:]

I'm fighting hard

To hold my own

No, I just can't make it

All alone



I'm holdin on

I can't fall back

Now that big brass ring

Is a shade of black



[Tshawe Baqwa:]

Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out, baby

Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out darlin



Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out, baby

Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out darlin



Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out, baby

Beggin, beggin you

Put your loving hand out darlin

Uselessness

Please.. forgive..

I knew I have no reason to beg for your forgival.

But really sorry..



I hate myself, hate my uselessness.

Cried over the night for it.

Poor relationship leads to my fail in my achievement.

This may contribute to even major failure to myself.



Just by getting 3 green diabolo..



By first, anyone wanna lend me?



I fail to find even 1, hardly able to face back myself in the mirror.

Thorns are growing everywhere on my path.

I'm used to it, if it is harmless to me, though..



Everyone has got em's origin to get.

Everyone has a 'home' to ask help from, where are mine's?

I got no home already.. not once before..

rm 80 x 3 = rm 240

Thoughts

I've really done a lot sacrifices..

I, can miss out my tuition class. (And get replacement if possible)

I, can ponteng my school period.

I, can even lay down my pride and try to mix into the group.



In the long run, I might doubt my act.

How is my sacrifices worthy to myself?



I'm confused. (Again..)



Wad da hell i'm rumbling in my mind.

Why i'm just so depressed?

Why i just can't take it like how i face my school friends?



*it was your fault for not grouping me in*

*it was your fault..*

*your fault..*

*no*

*but i'm*

Damn

W A D A H E L L !!!



What the farking hell, we got second?!.. damn big shock to me, and to you too, right?

and the champion was awarded to the.. hell.. noob.. boring.. BAND?! BB~ BRA-ss Band!

Not to say that I was not willing to lose, but lose to such.. damn dissapointed.



Just because that you guys have more and more fanz in the room.

Com'n! PK with points given by judge larh, scare ah

Even when tell ah gor oso shame..



"We lose to a band.."



Duno gor got what response lol, if he don't know that the point was given by audience.



After back home, told my mum that we lost.

She was like .. "ofcourse will lose larh"...

Her explaination was much more.. like.. idealable?



She said that..

Since we.. are both champion adi..

Why give us champion again?

Com'n give another chance to other people bah~~



Moreover, she said something more lame.

The champ get rm300, 1st runner get rm 150 and 2nd runner get rm 100.

Total of 550.

Where da hell they get so much money? Of course will got sponsor larh.

Probable that the sponsor is the.. champ?

(This reason was damn stupid from what I think)

Giving up

Yea, Give up.

Whenever we meet something that we hardly able to achieve, we rather choose to give up on it, than try even more hardly to overcome it.

This is.. reasonable? Right?



Its been almost 3 month I started by B-boy lesson. :P

First, was thought it would be that fun.

As I was a beginner, what I learn should be what a beginner move too, of course! :P

I still remembered, that my first day, was just training 6-step, and coach taught me turtle and frog stand.



Somehow, they were all super duper ultra noobie skill.

Was so easy to catch up with it.

After that, we learnt handstand, elbow stand and head stand.

Then freezes such as chair freeze, shoulder freeze.

Not to forget about One-step, Two-step and also Three-step.

Feeling like one-step was just a rubbish move lol, hard + tiring + boring. :P



Was so fortunately, I was able to stabilize my Headstand, All Freezes and All Steps. (Yeah xD)

And, also unfortunately, I was unable to stabilize my Handstand and Elbow stand. T_T

They was so hard, and I dump my whole body to the floor hundreds of time.

I tried to practice it whenever I could, such as.. Monday.. But not that fortunate.. I can't..



The feel of Give Up came across my mine lol.

This feeling occur before in the past, when I was also having a hard time training diabolo. (Haha)

I overcome it, and I'm having a happy moment playing diabolo, hope so with my Breaking. ^^

+u to myself